So I have clearly been neglecting this blog for the past hmmmmmmmm 6 months. I could come up with every excuse in the book and they'd all be believable but why not just stick to the truth-I had nothing to say. Simple.
The past 6 months have gone by so quickly and not much has happened except moving from the town i was working in last year to my 2nd home town,slowly moving up career wise,moving into a townhouse with my cousin and finally finding a man who tolerates my nonsense and appreciates every bit of me. So one would think a girl would be somewhat satisfied with the cards she's been dealt. Don't get me wrong,I am grateful for all these blessings but there's always that feeling that something is missing. This feeling,this constant search for whatever it is that's missing,I know will ultimately end up in me sabotaging all these good things I have.
So why not just accept and be content with all that I have?
I am surrounded daily by people who are always trying to outdo each other-in looks,cars etc. One cant help but get caught up in all the nonsense...its exhausting,trying to keep up with everyone. As i was driving from my place to see my parents,all this was going around in my head and eventually I asked myself-WHY? I didn't have an answer. It really is just a waste of time. There will always be someone who is a step above me. But there will always be one me :) (cliche I know) but if I don't keep reminding myself of this little fact...I will go insane,constantly wondering am I good enough for everyone.
Well,I am who I am and I am happy and grateful for everything I have...no doubt I will continue to push myself to be a better person in every aspect of my life,but that will be to satisfy myself and my needs...not yours.
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